Examinez

对我来说考试简直就是一种痛苦的折磨,学生的生活真的好痛苦。在我的想象中,最理想的生活应该是,坐在电脑前喝着一杯绿茶,写下今天的心情;然后再找一本我钟爱的小说,细细地品读。这才是生活啊!天天为了考试而啃书,已然将曾经火热的心变得冷漠。有时甚至还会怀疑,这样做到底是为了什么?那些牺牲,值得吗?

接受正统教育也有十三年了,慢慢开始对书产生恐惧感,已翻开书就想打瞌睡,想逃避。对于这样的问题,暂时还没有解决方案。只知道偷懒后就一定会有可怕且甩不掉的内疚感。更令我头痛的是,我有另一个坏毛病,就是我不能乖乖地坐在书桌前,专心的读几个小时的书。我的头脑总是没得到我的允许就到处游荡,电视机、电脑等也开始变得比往常更有吸引力。

看着永远像山一样高的书本,听着永远也不会为我而停的秒针……心里面承受的压力越来越大,毕竟这和我以往的考试方式不一样。我压力好大,不敢想象如果考不好,我的下场会怎么样。 重考?留级??开除???可是大学的考试我真的没把握啊。范围这么广,这么多东西背,而且又不一定会记得。我知道就算举白旗投降也于事无补,命运注定了我必须战死沙场。熬夜读书是无法避免的了。

于是,不顾一切的凶咖啡。连续一个星期,咖啡因在我血液里循环,刺激我的心脏,让它猛猛的跳动,让血压血量升高,让每一个细胞都能获得足够的氧气及养分。最重要的是,让我有精神撑下去、拼下去。我知道自己是不会放弃的,只希望它能立刻成为过去,成为我人生中的历史。

6 comments so far

  1. HuiHoon on

    当你读书感到累了,适当的休息及娱乐是必要的。别让自己压力太大,尝试放下心中那股对读书的不悦,尝试用别的想法来想读书的乐趣,把考试当作是一场挑战,而不是一种折磨。渐渐的,你可能就不会感到那么痛苦,或许还会考到更好的成绩。娱乐及休息室必要的,别因为读书考试而失去了方向哦。。加油!!All The Best ya^^Good luck:)

  2. h.wen on

    jia hui!!

    u sounded very stressed up..chill chill yea..
    u have been passing ur exams wif flying colours all these while, so it wont b an exceptional fr ur present course as well :D

    just take gud care of urself k..studies & exams is just part of it, working life shud b the actual challenges..hehe..

    i may sounded like some advisor kind, but im worse than u..in terms of results & studies..haha..
    happy go lucky a bit, & ur life appears to be more wonerful..im always there to support u,

    morally of coz ~~ haha

  3. evangelineodyssey on

    HuiHoon,I’m not the kind of person who can study for very long hours non stop,so I did relax for a while despite of my critical situation. Actually I’m just voicing out the distress that most people face before exam,it is very common. Maybe I made it sound more serious in this post than I wanted to. Dun worry,I’m happy and sane=P
    Thank you for being such a caring friend,love ya=)Keep in touch…

  4. evangelineodyssey on

    Hueywen,thanks for your advice. I didn’t actually feel that stressful. I think this post is a bit exaggerating,if not it will be too boring=P I dun think you are worse than me la,there is a lot of things that I need to learn from you. You will be leaving to Aus soon,wish you all the best ya,you can do very well,I have faith in you=)

  5. min on

    i now also facing wat i wrote…
    but i think mine not stress as yours…
    when i stress or tired…
    i will console myself say tat those tired and stressful days will pass very fast..
    see…now already 13years u study d.. so fast..
    patient bit then i will see u drinking ur tea shaking leg there lo ^^

  6. min on

    is wat “you” wrote ^^ type wrong


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